day 109

i miss you,

come home.

40 days.

oneday

I wished for him.

I prayed for him.

40 days later....

I'm still with him.

I'm so thankful for you.

i love you, Jhason.

one year.

ONE year ago- i moved to Nashville

ONE year ago- i was craving happiness

ONE year ago- i was just a barista at Starbucks

ONE year ago- i was single

ONE year ago- i was excited about my first apartment

ONE year ago- i had about 5 friends here

ONE year ago- i was different

ONE year later- I am living my dreams

ONE year later- I am happier than i've ever been

ONE year later- i am the lead shift supervisor at my store

ONE year later- God has brought me the greatest boyfriend

ONE year later- I have a whole family within Eastgate and a ton of friends

ONE year later- i am His... completely.

love is...you

skinny love

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right in the moment this order's tall

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"
I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love what happened here
Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full; so slow on the split

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
Now all your love is wasted?
Then who the h-eck was I?
Now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?

izzes and snow patrol

lets see

i've been posting a lot about my new things but haven't actually told you about them....

welp lets see

i've lost about 14 pounds if not more

none of my clothes fit anymore

i have a very handsome boyfriend day 18

he brings me flowers and calls me beautiful

i have short hair dark now

it's weird but i like it

i'm moving in 25 days

SEPT 28TH.

i'm still dreaming but living out some of my dreams it feels good but weird being awake for it all.

i can't help but be so incredibly happy in the season of life.

SO many good and exciting things are blossoming.

I can't wait to get into my new living space.

I feel like it's been a time of major growth and transition.

I have felt Him just laying a foundation that is so firm and will last through

the hardest time.

In all other times i was relying on my own strength and thought it would stand...

two words for that:

sinking sand.

He MUST be the foundation of living.

Trust.

Believe.

Not your strength but HIS.

thank you Lord for this season.

happy one week.

you're the best gift i never saw coming.

i'm so glad it's you.

happy one week

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day3

go to the passage on the right side of this page....

it explains it all.

dayfiveofseven.

i'm strong.

i can do this.

twenty one- w i s h

twenty-one

Swan dive down eleven stories high
Hold your breath until you see the light
You can sink to the bottom of the sea

Just don't go without me
Go get lost where no one can be found
Drink so long and deep until you drown
Say your goodbyes but darlin' if you please,
Don't go without me.

C'est las vie, C'est la mort.

You and me,

forevermore.

Let's walk on the road that has no end

Steal away where only angels tread

Heaven or hell or somewhere in between

Cross your heart and take me with you please

don't go

please don't go

don't go without me

one of the best birthday's ever.

*comewhatmay.

TMFS

So, I've been spending a lot of time editing wedding photos and so seeing that it makes me think of

this website is like a picture book of emotions of ones feelings expressed

to that special someone but released to the entire world

for some reason it makes me think of a scene in the movie "Bed Of Roses"

There's a scene in which he walks on the street by her window every night and looks up and wonders why she's so sad and when they meet and fall in love he realizes it was her all along.

Makes me think of how many times we look up into a window or pray for our future "somebody" and then when you finally meet you realize why you prayed for them or realize it was them all along...

We're all basically walking through our single lives singing this song:

Him: "Why are you so far from me?

In my arms is where you are to be

Her: How long will you make me wait?

I don't know how mu

ch more I can take

Together: I missed you but I haven't met you

Oh but I want to

How I do

Him: Slowly counting down the days

Till I finally know your name

Her: The way your hand feels round my waist

The way you laugh, the way your kisses taste

Together: I missed you but I haven't met you

Oh but I want to

How I do

How I do

I've missed you but I haven't met you

Oh how I miss you but I haven't met you

Oh but I want to

Oh how I want to

Him: Dear whoever you might be

Her: I'm still waiting patiently "

wait... patiently :)

i miss you.

light up your face with gladness

my absolute favorite painting thus far

i was sitting in my favorite coffee shop today and i don't know why but i was pretty

sad. and i had been listening to different songs and a tear would fall from my eyes and

i tried reading and editing but it just kept coming sadness upon sadness

then i pulled myself together in the corner of this coffee shop and this random guy

walks by looks at me and just... smiles.

my heart was warmed and i realized.

that's what i needed.

i needed a smile. just simply a smile from a random stranger who chose to

light up his face and just smile.

If i die young

Well, it was quite heart breaking to hear the death of friend a IBC this past wednesday night

Chase Marshall

I didn't know him all that well but I did spend time with him last time I visited Indiana.

He was always so kind and funny made people feel welcomed and wanted them to smile.

He also had a beautiful voice and a heart of gold even within the matter of minutes you could see

it shine through. I know he is singing in the heavenly choir now but still sad to see someone so

young go.

It's weird and quite sad I suppose but I've always had this feeling I would die young.

I know i know you're sitting there reading my words and saying BRITTANY...

but it's true.

I want to live a life get married, have children, and grow old but i don't know.

life is but a vapor.

it's scary to think but if i did die i would want you... yes you to know you are loved

you are alot more than what you see in a mirror or in pictures you're better than all the bad

things you say about yourself and let me tell you... you are opposite of the lies and curses people try

and put on you.

Dear Stranger,

I think you are lovely. You're beautiful and your heart is something no one has...

You think of others more than you think of yourself and you try and smile as much as

possible to keep people from frowning and asking you if somethings wrong.

You are important. You mean something to this world. You mean something to me.

If you ever feel like you're not good enough you're probably right. because you're better than good enough.

you're amazing. Some people think you're weird i say you're unique. some people say you're unsocial i

say you're a thinker. some people say you are too quiet... i say you're a good listener.

you're not always what you think.

i love you and He loves you.

the end.

b.

the clouds are rotating

LOVE.

People smile and tell me I'm the lucky one, and we've just begun,

Think I'm gonna have a son.

He will be like she and me, as free as a dove, conceived in love,

Sun is gonna shine above.

And even though we ain't got money, I'm so in love with ya honey,

And everything will bring a chain of love.

And in the morning when I rise, you bring a tear of joy to my eyes,

And tell me everything is gonna be alright.

Seems as though a month ago I beta chi, never got high,

Oh, I was a sorry guy.

And now a smile, a face, a girl that shares my name,

Now I'm through with the game, this boy will never be the same.

Pisces, Virgo rising is a very good sign, strong and kind,

And the little boy is mine.

Now I see a family where there once was none, now we've just begun,

Yeah, we're gonna fly to the sun.

Love the girl who holds the world in a paper cup, drink it up,

Love her and she'll bring you luck.

And if you find she helps your mind, buddy, take her home,

Don't you live alone, try to earn what lovers own.

And even though we ain't got money, I'm so in love with ya honey,

And everything will bring a chain of love.

And in the morning when I rise, you bring a tear of joy to my eyes,

And tell me everything is gonna be alright.

likes

Love isn't waitin for the storm to pass but to learn to dance in the rain.

my love for coffee is unimaginable

agreed

yes please

summer home?

God Gave Me You!

Alright, so after moving to Nashville I started going to this church Eastgate : )

all because of someone.

Jhason Smith.

If it weren't for him I wouldn't feel the belonging I do in such a wonderful church

but as well as that I wouldn't have met his wonderful family and especially his sister, Jeorgi : )

She has been my Sunshine at the end of the tunnel.

We decided that this year once a week we will get together and just inspire, encourage, and challenge one another

we bought each other journals and are writing in them weekly and starting this year on a journey together.

See, we all need somebody

someone to have accountability to

to find encouragement

to hold our hand through a hard time

to praise us when we've done something right.

it's amazing what friendships will do....

so,

look around at who God has placed in your life.

and

LOVE

BELIEVE

GROW.

b.

: )

I'm such a sucker for the New Year.

It's pretty much my favorite holiday.

The newness of everything... ending and beginning its wonderful

So, publicly i will say Hello, 2011

It's officially been one year since i started blogging :)

I hope and pray that this year brings me love, belief, and achievements.

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Also, This year I have decided to do a 365 Picture Blog.

I'll try my best to post 7 pictures each week so you can see my progress .]

i love you 2011.