high&dry

The song stuck in my head for days is High&Dry-Radiohead

<3

well, for the past week I've been on tour with IBC Chorale.

it's been nuts. absolutely crazy...

first bus broke down

second bus put us 5 hours behind schedule

second bus smells like pee

second bus broke down in MS

dont even get me started.

BUT goodnews

I'm in houston.

SO so SO happy.

dinner was spent with danny, and coffee with blue eyes i'm so excited

life is grand and i'm happy to be living it ;)

different?

So, i've been in thought about different things

such as,

why do we look write people off because they're "different"?

why do we try to fit everyone in a certain when we were all created by our amazing creator so uniquely?

it just amazes me how people can go so unnoticed and can slip away from a crowd and no one notice.

thats when i think of Jesus.

and how He reached those "outcasts" and He to those that were unwanted

those that were different. not the ones that "had it all together" oh no He

reached out to those who were broken and shattered.

this is a list of people who had problems:

• Abraham lied.
• Sarah laughed at God’s promises.
• Moses stuttered.
• David’s armor didn’t fit.
• John Mark was rejected by Paul.
• Timothy had ulcers.
• Hosea’s wife was a prostitute.
• Amos’ only training was in the school of fig-tree pruning.
• Jacob was a liar.
• David had an affair.
• Solomon was too rich.
• Jesus was too poor.
• Abraham was too old.
• David was too young.
• Peter was afraid of death.
• Lazarus was dead.
• John was self-righteous.
• Naomi was a widow.
• Paul was a murderer.
• So was Moses.
• So was David.
• Jonah ran from God.
• Miriam was a gossip.
• Gideon and Thomas both doubted.
• Jeremiah was depressed and suicidal.
• Elijah was burned out.
• John the Baptist was a loudmouth.
• Martha was a worry-wart.
• Mary may have been lazy.
• Samson had long hair.
• Noah got drunk.
• Did I mention Moses had a short fuse?
• So did Peter, Paul and lots of folks.

but God used them what more can He do with us?

i know sometimes we feel inadequate and insignificant

but He knows us.

He saw it all along and still He chose YOU.

new artist.

Sara Haze

her lyrics have got me hooked

i'm sure shes been around for while now

but i found her on pandora radio

and her lyrics are so full of raw emotion

its insane how honest she is and i totally

relate to her music. i hope that one day i

can get to the point in song writing

where i can be completely honest and speak

to someone situation as she has in her lyrics

in my life.

enjoy:

lovely-

I don't wanna be hurt

I just want to be little old me

Shouldn't have to think

Who am I suppose to be today

And what give you the right

To tell me who I should be

Who gave you that right

Cause I, I feel lovely

Just the way that I am

Yes I feel lovely

The way that I am

I know you want the best

Yeah only good things for me

But you have to realize

I can be all these things you project on me

Cause I'm beautiful to me

Doesn't that mean a thing

I feel lovely

Just the way that I am

Yes I feel lovely

The way that I am

I need that to be enough for you

Need that to be enough for you

Cause it's enough for me

It's enough for me

I'm I suppose to give up everything I am

Just to make you happy

I thought I was the one you

Always wanted me to be

It turns out I'm just little old me

I'm just little old me

And that's fine by me

Cause I, I am lovely

Just the way that I am

Oh yes I am,

Yes I am lovely

The way that I am

I am lovely lovely

I am lovely

friends and matches

I had a conversation with a friend of mine the other day

about this subject

and i have come to the realization

that friends are alot like matches

at the beginning of a friendship it is the brightest

and most intense it burns so bright and it's amazing

and you can use that flame to ignite candles or other

various things and it can brighten up your life

but if you hold on to the match too long it's gonna end

up burning you.

sometimes friends can be awesome

and help you and will consume so many parts of your

life and last forever it seems but sometimes

there are those you just have to let go

you have to let the flame burn out because if you don't

you're gonna get burned

be wise in your choices

everyone comes in and out of your life for a reason

cherish those that help consume your life and brighten up your life

but those that only last the duration of a match

learn from them but know when to let it go.

i hate goodbyes.

saying goodbye freaks me out

goodbye is terrifies me.

seriously. this is why i use phrases like

"see ya" or "be careful"

i mean i use the word "bye"

but i h a t e it

when people leave me just for the day it

it normally takes about 3 or 4 hugs to let them actually leave.

or if i'm ready to go sometimes i just disappear so i don't have to say it

its a problem i know.

but really i don't want to let anyone go

the people i let in my life

or let close to me are people i want with me for always

and when they have to go it sends me into shut down mode.

i'm not quite sure why i'm saying all this but its true.

i h a t e goodbye.

birds.

freedom.

Birds and cages have been a big obsession lately.

i'm so intrigued by the whole image of it

the concept of being in caged and trapped.

the thought of this beautiful creature

some with talent of speaking and or singing

is locked inside for someone else's entertainment

seems almost unthinkable and overwhelming

this isn't a blog devoted to saving the birds but

think about it in terms of your own life

as in

are you locked inside a cage?

what is your cage?

fear?

doubt?

insecurity?

depression?

you just as birds were not meant to be caged

BREAK OUT.

one sweet girl i've been connected with gives me hope in the thought

of being a bird in a sense

she is like unto a blue bird

the symbolism in blue birds is:

"cheerfulness, happiness, prosperity, hearth and home, good health, new births, the renewal of springtime"

this describes her entirely.

she walks with her head held high

smile on her face

dressed like a lady

her lifestyle affects people that she doesn't even know

she is an encourager

she is beautiful

but as a bird she is free spirited

she is gifted and she must fly and be free

she must do what her heart desires

she has an unlimited number of paths to spread her wings

but she will know

in her heart soon enough

where her wings may take her

and in that moment she will be free.

break out.

love you,

abh

insanely hypnotic

I have found that any song that starts with a constant piano

piece i become addicted.

songs like

"hometown glory"

-adele

"glitter in the air"

-pink

"gravity" sara bareilles

"breathe me"

- sia

"blue lips"

-regina spektor

it's crazy how hypnotic they can

be i can repeat them over

and over again

not really get sick of them

"They started

off beneath an olive tree

And they chopped it down to make a picket fence

And marching along the railroad tracks

They smiled real wide for the camera lens

As they made it past the enemy lines

Just to become enslaved in the enemy lines"

-Regina Spektor

"Help, I have done it again

I have been here many times before

I hurt myself again today

And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame"

-Sia

I live here on my knees

As I try to make you see

That you're everything I think I need

Here on the ground

But you're neither friend nor foe

Though I can't seem

to let you go the one thing that I still know

Is that you're keeping me down

You're keeping me down

-Sara Bareilles

I like it in the city when the air

is so thick and opaque

I love to see everybody in short skirts, shorts and shades I like it in the city when two worlds collide You get the people and the government

-Adele

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?

You’re whole life waiting on the ring to prove you’re not alone

Have you Ever been touched so gently you had to cry?

Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

-pink