Crossroads

so i'm so happy

first i find out that one of my favorite girl's is coming to see me dec 17th

little Miss.Stephanie herself .]

she's staying until the 21 then were "going back down southbound"

tons of ideas are rolling around in my head

picnics

dinners

desserts

baking

SO much planned/unplanned

THEN

Monday i find out one of my Favorite guys in this world has moved back to nashville

Mr.Randy Thomas himself .]

you have no idea how happy/excited i was when i got this news

Hes basically a musical genius, cuddly teddybear, make your horrible day the best of your life, kinda guy

my life beautiful <3

coffee shop love

One of my new found favorite coffee shops
CREMA.

beautiful indie set up.
great coffee, amazing atmosphere, indie music, artwork, great view,
friendly customer service, and just an all around great place.



15 Hermitage Avenue
Nashville, TN 37210


i love coffee shops they're such a fun place to people watch,
make new friends, and time to gives you time to think.

i can't wait to open my own shop one day

it will be beautiful, my artwork and photography displayed,
my one day cd on the shelves, pianos, guitars everywhere, and my VW van parked on the side.

I've started living the first part of my dream... but that will be part 4 of my dream : )

ohhhh my little dream world.

the beatles.

I was mesmerized when i saw these on the main Apple page.

the photos, text, agh i was in awe i just sat and stared for at least a minute

now on itunes.

this is a picture of Ringo singing while playing the drums from the

Live in Washington Coliseum 1964. It's free to watch.

<3>

s e n s i t i v e

I have always been quite sensitive. It's something I really need to work on.

I feel like in past relationships and within people who have been leaders in my life

have really treated me in an unnecessary manner that has shaped me to become that way

but ever since i was a kid i've always been pretty sensitive.

so how do you overcome being such a little sensitive sally.

i've just taken it and let it eat me up inside and just go with it

RESULTED IN MORE SENSITIVITY

i tried locking things in and shoving them under the rug until it drives me insane then i burst

UNHEALTHY

i'm not too sure what approach to take now.

any ideas?

the other girl

I dunno why but every girl goes through this whole "other girl" phase deal

theres the guy you like/love and then he either dumps you for "her" or you

date him and he goes back to "her"

I feel like we always get caught up in comparing ourselves to "her"

she's prettier

she's uglier

she's got a great figure

she's funny

she's rude

etc

etc

then we start asking ourselves what we could've done to be like her to make him stay.

STOP

you're not "her" and shes not you

you are you: beautiful, unique, funny, crazy, quiet, witty, shy, outgoing, whatever you are

stop critizing yourself and start loving yourself.

theres always gonna be somebody better than you. that's why you have to be the best you

no one else can do that but yourself.

you can't be her. as cliche as it is you're good just the way you are

granted we all have room for improvement but don't go changing yourself for

someone else.

thats just been something thats been weighing on me lately.

had to get it out

dinner

Had such an amazing dinner tonight

the table was set and filled with wonderful mexican food

tacos, chips, dip, and dessert

loved it.

loved my guests.

thank you Stephen, Susan, Erin, and Jon

: )

two days

Well, my apologies for the delay from delay.

Finally in my own apartment.

Finally living the life i've been blogging about

• Nashville-Check
• New (Decorated) Apartment-Check
• Shift Supervisor at Sbux-Check
• Amazing New Church-Check

It's truly amazing

I have two days off so i have time to blog.

I will be updating a lot within theses days.

Keep checking back bloggers

xo,

b.

1 2 0 7

first night at my new/1st apartment

sleep tight bloggers from 1207

b.

10/10/10

My first thought of the night is that today was a divine day

10-10-10

that wont happen again,

two!

Being that i've been looking at a ton of pictures of HUGE hairstyles.

i'm so tempted to do them.

i think i may at least one day this week. i mean i AM from tx : )

alright lets see.

OH, i got my glasses back

i went to live on the green the other night and saw

Band of Horses.

amazing job.

"I'm coming up only to hold you under
I'm coming up only to show you wrong
And to know you is hard; we wonder
To know you all wrong; we warn.

Really too late to call,
So we wait for morning to wake you
That's all we got
And to know me as hardly golden
Is to know me all wrong, they warn.

At every occasion, I'll be ready for the funeral
At every occasion, once more, is called the funeral
Every occasion, know I'm ready for the funeral
At every occasion, oh, one million day funeral

I'm coming up only to show you down,
For I'm coming up only to show you wrong.

To the outside: the dead leaves, they're on the lawn
For they don't have trees to hang their own."

The Funeral- BoH

Prove them wrong.

Wow

So this post is not a toast to Miley Cyrus but it does involve one of the songs she has

sang. But the writer Jessi Alexander totally spoke to me today with her words almost put me in tears

With all the chaos of the past year or so listening to that song today

made my heart hurt for those going through that same time in there life right now

where every way you turn someones telling you something different and you don't know who to believe and your head and your heart are saying two separate things and you are just at the point of breaking and you feel lost.

i've been there.

and it's been one of the hardest things i've ever gone through in my life.

but i'm here to tell you... YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY.

it may take awhile but someday you will prove them wrong.

just like me.

I'm finally living a part of my dream in the place i knew i was meant to be.

getting promoted. waking up happy. and trusting and believing in the one that got me here. GOD.

Trust in Him and He will guide your way...

You're just a caterpillar right now but wait a little bit because you'll go from crawling on the ground and it taking you forever to get anywhere to a beautiful butterfly flying into the open space of opportunity and life.

it may get dark sometimes and death may become you but you will live.

its all about "the climb"

"I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa"

Alright so i'm gonna be really girly right now and talk about boys

.]

i'm so intrigued by

Witty, Indie, Musical, Mysterious, Funny, Well Dressed, Unusual,

Unique, Intelligent, Dark featured, Argumentative, Crazy Haired, boys

boys like,

Elvis Presley,

Ringo Starr (young),

Jared Followill,

Freddie Prinze Jr.,

Ashton Kutcher

Heath Ledger

Robert Pattinson

boy's that have intelligence that knocks your socks of and keeps you guessing

ones you can't get outta your head

ones that don't need your help on winning you over

one that can stop your day by sending a text and you get all giddy

oh i live in a dream world sometimes...

one day i'll sing this with the lovely boy of my dreams

i can see it now us all stressed out about the bills and money and

because he's the technical, logical, more serious and thinker of us both i'll say hey,

it will make him laugh and make our troubles disappear for about 5 mins : )

I'm really starting to believe that there are no accidents, coincidences, mistakes in life.
As cliche as it sounds, everything really does happen for a reason.
Okay for some of you this may be a really silly thought but it's been in my
head for a little while and i'm gonna go ahead and put it out there since it kinda
ties into this non belief of mishaps.

Okay

I was reading a story to my niece the other night and it was Cinderella.
Basic story young girl treated like an outcast by her family, prince throws a ball,
she can't go, fairy godmother, she meets/loves the prince, glass slipper, 12.01,
back to normal, prince finds glass slipper, the prince finds her, happily ever after
right?

WRONG.



Okay in the story at 12:01 everything is supposed to disappear and go back to normal right?
Then why was the glass slipper still left? If the glass slipper didn't exist the story of
Cinderella and the Prince would most likely be non existent...

Get it?

Nothing happens on accident.

You meet people on purpose.
You don't move for a reason.
You break up because you needed to.

Joel Osteen said one time, "Every setback is a setup for a comeback"

Consider yourself warned.

btw. you're reading this on purpose .]

I'M HERE!

Yeah its been a official for about a week and two days now but

here i am:



it's so crazy being here but it makes me so happy to be

i've been working like crazy but i hung out at cafe co co the other night



and went to music city thrift .)

i also went apartment shopping yesterday

looks like mid october is my date.



even after all the bliss of Nashvegas i still miss my friends in houston


Blake,



Steph,



Jason,



my stooges .]

welp

hmph lets see.

i never know how to start these things

well, i think my dreams are finally starting to come into reach

sept 12th is my set date for something pretty awesome.

i've become pretty obsessed with Ringo Starr these days

he was precious when he was younger

i feel like i would've adored him

and i imagine we would've been pretty cute together

<3

i'm super thankful for my friends these days

the ones that

love me

dont judge me

think better of me than i do of myself.

you all mean the world to me

I've been watching lots of

random interviews/documentaries lately:

Britney Spears

Justin Timberlake

Lady Gaga

Imogen Heap

Ringo Starr

Marilyn Monroe

so random

although Imogen Heap is still inspiring me these days

her technique is insane and i will end up doing what she

does soon when i can afford to do so.

my sleeping pattern is SO off.

i watched an entire season of Gossip Girl in 1 1/2 days.

r i d i c u l o u s

srly. cbscnatevanessadramadanliljlilly

enough.

the end.

Camscott.

I kept pondering on what to write about...

I decided to dedicate this post to one of the

most amazing people that has ever come into my life.

Cameron Scott.

His talent is unmatchable

His creativity is unfathomable

His words are encouraging

His humor is laughable .)

His style is unique

His compliments are sincere

His anger is hilarious

His dreams surpass any others

His music is complex

He's not what you expect

He's honest

He's loving

He is one of the greatest guys I know.

it's not all about his pretty face or gorgeous voice... he has a heart of gold and is my gem.

happy birthday cameron scott

thank you for being my amazing friend

enjoy your day

caught in a trance

So its been awhile since I've written

I have switched my writings to a journal

yes i'm actually using paper and pen instead

of a keyboard and screen call me old fashioned

Lets talk about my updated life.

-I'm unemployed. starbucks fired me b/c i'm a paying "thief" makes no sense right?

-I've painted a new canvas

-I filed for unemployment

-Interviewing with Apple

-Reading, "A Beautiful Kind of Broken" -Luke Holter

-Listening, Radiohead & Fiction Family

-Went to Louisiana saw my southern belle, Courtney Dawn

-Also spent time with my dear Ragen Blair

-Missing Nashville

-Learning more about Relationship

Life's not so bad.

it's getting better.

my life will not be complete until i'm on my balcony swing

enjoying my music, coffee, and the beautiful boy i'll have next to me

and friends i don't ever wanna let leave.

oneday.